Rest...
These days I have been resting, I have felt very good and better being away from people and emotions that affect me, or that I let affect me. On Monday I spoke with A, it was very good for me to talk to her, she gave another focus to my existence, she told me that perhaps I was settling for little, that I was not the only one, but I was the only one, that I was still very strong. to continue standing and wanting to change some things about myself to improve, which meant that the world was not yet lost.
In any case and in any case, I feel that I must be my priority, and in "my priority" there are also my children, my work, and I, all three of us are one, who make up one "I".
I have been listening to videos on Stoicism, they have helped me a lot, time has also helped me, going to therapy has also helped me. I feel stronger. And I know I'm not going to waste my time with absolutely anyone. I must focus on my own existence. And I plan to continue with everything I've been doing, with more focus... knowing that one day everything will be better and I will be in a better place with my children.
Yesterday I went to the pool, I went alone, I felt very good, I haven't gone out to do something alone in a while, I feel good.
There are people with whom it would not be worth going out even to the corner, especially if you want to reach a certain level of consciousness or life. There are people who are very boisterous with their voices, who make a noise, but in themselves they don't say anything in particular, they have some good things, but... they won't get you to the level you want. There are other people who talk a lot, decorate their words with promises but never fulfill them. There is a long way to go from saying to doing. People like that are of no use to you. But... use people to your advantage, in a kind and subtle way, so that your true interest is not noticeable, make them believe that it is something genuine. Do it like this while you get to where you want to go. It seems cold, but there are people who don't deserve the best from us, it's that simple.
So, cold, without feeling...
Be kind to those who deserve it and earn it. Not with the rest.